Tuesday, November 25th
My dog died yesterday. She was 11.
Grief is really hard. I feel like I didn't spend enough time with her. Like I moved out too suddenly. I feel really sad, and when I don't feel sad, I feel guilty.
Talking to my mom helped a lot. "Everyone grieves differently. Don't feel guilty if you don't always feel sad." I honestly wasn't at all sure what I'd feel. I think it still doesn't feel real. I'm sure it never will.
I brought a box full of her stuff home. My shirt smells like her (or, at least the essential oils my mom put on her neck.). I'm debating getting a tattoo for her.
You were the best dog ever, Mojo. I will always love you so, so, so, so, so much my sweet girl.
Thurs, October 9th
Starting off very strong: I GOT A GARFIELD PHONE!!!! I've been wanting one for years now, but they're usually so expensive that I can't let myself buy one. But, I finally caved and did it! And he arrived today! I'm so happy!
I'm hoping to find a way to be able to use him without actually setting him up as a landline (I live in a shitty little garage-converted-to-"apartment," so no actual landline here!). From the small amount of research I've done, my best bet seems like getting a bluetooth adapter that just turns it into an extension of my cell phone. I am hoping to be able to actually have him be a functional phone without just being bluetooth, but I haven't seen anything I'm sure about yet. But here's hoping!
